My Comeback

Hey guys, watchers, friends, everyone. I know it's been a long while since I last touched deviantART. That has a reason and I will tell in a moment. It is just that for a while now I haven’t felt like writing or posting anything. I’m working a full-time job as a software engineer but that doesn’t really have much to do with it, although I do have a lot less spare time than when I was still studying.

No, I’ve had a pretty rough past and I sometimes I have the feeling I have been fighting through life most of the time. Of course I’ve had fun too but I always felt it took me just a little more effort to enjoy than the people around me. And yeah, people have never told me before but eventually you start noticing that you’re different. In your behavior compared to others, interests, hobbies, everything. When I got older I started thinking differently about the world (because of my past) but I also started coping with feelings of depression more what’s good for a healthy person.

So that’s why I decided to take it to a psychologist. He was a really great help. During the last couple of weeks I’ve discovered so much about myself. More than I ever knew. Now I know much more about who I am and how I can deal with negative feelings and emotions. I had been fighting a constant battle with myself and the world around me. So I took a large variety of tests to find out if anything was wrong, have been talking more to people about certain things/problems/feelings/ideas. As it turns out, the conclusion of the whole thing is that I have been diagnosed with Asperger syndrome and I’ve had that feeling for a while now, before I took the tests, before I even started talking to a psychologist or to my parents.

Back to deviantART, story writing and just being creative. I am planning to make my comeback. I’m sorry for disappearing all of a sudden. I was really enjoying deviantART and FanFiction but was having difficulty managing my timetable (partly because I’m setting impossible goals for myself because of my condition) and I feel (even though it doesn’t have to be) that I don’t have time to get anything done. But I’m not ready to give up on everything I’ve created up till now. I love you guys, love your art and of course the commissions I’ve done with some of you in the past. So I’m coming back, starting with this journal. I’m going to catch up on all the art you’ve created in the meantime and will try to start posting again because I still have lots of ideas that I want to work out. You might see my posts appearing under your works again soon.